I’m back from Ubin!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just got back from OBS camp that was organised by OCBC. Sigh! Every time I went for camp, i kept telling myself that, 'hey, one day I shall become one of the instructor also.' But ended up I'm working in OCBC. Sigh! It's just so not my type! I love outdoor activities so much but I'm kept inside an office working.... Sigh ):
After I came back from the camp, the first things i do was to go to OBS website to look at the job opportunity. I look through everything and I came to a point that I'm sure I will not get selected. Why bother to embarrass yourself by going for the trail? I give up the idea of it but seriously I know as time pass I'll regret for making this decision.
I love the way the instructor motivate the students by relating the activities that they had done which might make a great impact in their life. I love doing outdoor activities and most of all, interacting with different people. Which I felt that it a job I'll love and will never ever quit it. I saw this quote at OBS website, " find a job you love it and you'll never work a day in your life" which I totally agree with it.
Sigh. But I just got a feeling that I'll never even make it as an instructors as there is much more outstanding and experience instructor compare to me. Right now, I can't even overcome this fear which I felt I don't even deserve to be one at all.
I'm crying badly right now because I’d just give up a dream that I had long for.